Ready for New Beginnings?
How have you been feeling?
Has it felt to you that this year would bring some kind of opening, some kind of transformation? Interestingly, 2020 is a number 4 year (2+0+2+0=4) and in numerology this number is all about creating a (new) foundation.
When I look back at the past two decades, the energy has been all about plucking the weeds. It was the time of deep inner work, shifting tons of (subconscious) beliefs and clearing away the illusion of my old identity, an identity that had been created through past experiences, collective consciousness and external imprinting. It was all about chipping away the layers of false beliefs and programs about myself and the way the world works that I had identified with and accepted as truth even though it wasn’t.
I had grown up in an environment and a society that was extremely structured. I had always felt that everything in the life of the people around me had been pre-meditated and that there was no room for unlimited expression, discovery or magic. Having been rebellious all of my life, I just couldn’t accept to live within these narrow structures. It was a quote from Henry David Thoreau’s “Walden” that gave me the motivation to seek new possibilities: “I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived.”
So in my early 20s, I first moved to Vancouver and then to Los Angeles. Being away from home gave me a sense of freedom and the possibility to start exploring what I really wanted.
What I learned though is that you can run but you can’t hide. Whatever conditioning I had experienced and was carrying within me was still reflected through the ways I kept experiencing the world around me and the limitations I kept running into. Yes, there were new possibilities, and yet I came to realize that the identity that I had created with all of its beliefs and patterns was still there…and that it was time to change that.
Thus the journey of transformation begun. maybe it had even begun the day I decided to move, but now it was time for the internal shift. I embarked on reading tons of self-help books, working with different healers and taking classes on all kinds of spiritual topics. The most transformational things was learning how to change subconscious beliefs and tap into the Akasha. Then I started teaching my own classes where I shared what I had learned, what helped me and what I personally had channeled through.
When you do the inner work, the world around you changes. But also the visions and dreams that you had for your life might shift, hopefully becoming an even higher and better version of what you had imagined prior. By the end of last year I had come to a point where all the old was no longer working and all I could do step into trust to be shown the new that was waiting for me on the other side of the false identities that I had cleared away. I had finally come to a point of surrender.
Things are still shifting, things are still transforming. About a month ago we manifested a place about a 5 min walk away from our favorite beach here in O’ahu (see picture below). We’ve been taking strolls around this neighborhood that we have fallen in love with and are going for (nearly) daily swims in the ocean. The Kohola Ola Peace Project that we’ve been working on is coming close to completion, which means we will be working away on the book about the project for the next couple of months. My hubby Jivananda launched his Blue Spirulina company Blutra and we are loving our daily dose of this superfood.
And yet, it feels like there is still an evolution that is happening. There is still forward movement, change and new beginnings waiting to happen. I am ready to take my life to another level of love, joy, happiness, wholeness and fulfillment.
Ever since I was a kid I wanted to save the world. Now this notion of the savior mentality doesn’t feel right anymore. It feels heavy, old, burdensome. And I have started asking myself: What if we could save the world by stepping into our highest level of love and joy and sharing that frequency with the world? Maybe that is the new that is waiting to be born!
What about you? What do you think? Do you feel like there is something new and light and bright on the horizon just waiting for you to be discovered? Just waiting for its Divine Timing to happen? Let me know your thoughts! Would love to hear from you!